It’s no secret to those who know me, that I often find social media too… noisy… too shouty….and oftentimes too emotionally demanding.
I am old. I find it nicer to simply have a simple conversation with someone rather than shouting out to all the world in one fell swoop, leaving my words typed on a page to last until forever. That said, ‘forever’ isn’t what I thought it to be. Facebook often regurgitates memories that I wouldn’t care to be reminded of… and those events, or people get deleted. We can’t erase the past from our minds, but we certainly don’t have to choose to relive each moment.
Now… where was I going with this ramble when I started out? Ah yes, another inconvenience of age and being easily distracted. *grins*
I have just returned from just over two weeks away on holiday. I needed a break from all kinds of things, but definitely to find green spaces, to head to the beach too and stand in the sea and let nature cleanse the dark feelings of worry and gripping anxiety which bubbles up inside me at times, especially with the way the world seems to be these days.
I was able to check in with social media now and then while away, but luckily my chilled state of mind acted as a temporary buffer zone to all the shouting, squabbling and self-promotion which seems to go on. Hmmm I should explain that last part a little… self-promotion isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but do it for a reason… to share talent or insight, rather than simply because you exist.
I know I sound shocking, but I think it’s too easy to be caught up in the thin veneer of social media persona that it’s simple to create and step behind. Perhaps it seems that the assumed persona acts as armour enabling the wearer to behave any way they wish, without a thought for others or consequence!
I am well aware that I can come across as being abrasive, or short on patience… at times I am exactly that. I am not going to apologise for it either. I can be a good and loyal friend, but to those who merit it. Perhaps that sounds harsh, but I have learned that it’s perfectly possible, (and essential for me) to lead a considerate and kind life without being a doormat.
The first sign of someone throwing a tantrum at me for not endlessly supporting them, just because they are…simply there… and I back well away. I call it a ‘tantrum’ because that is just how it comes across. Those closest to me never need to have that conversation. True friendship is an even balance. I am by nature a giver, and only have space close to me for fellow givers.
I am no angel, but have learned to smile and accept the person I am. It’s probably best that others do too as I can’t see me changing… haha!
This beautiful top is Rosy from LYBRA: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Twilight%20Woods/182/166/25. and is available now at Fameshed: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/FaMESHed/191/158/22 . I love the silky and lace textures that Lybra produce in their clothes.
The panties are from Erratic: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/LE%20LOOK/128/128/2002. Somehow it seemed wrong to show off the top with trousers or a skirt. *winks*
The gorgeous leather chair with built in poses is from Gingerfish: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Brookhurst%20Cove/169/198/25. Tracy’s poses are so realistic and strong, and I find I use them over and over…. and over.
My head is the Ariel from LOGO: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Eventide%20Far%20East/177/116/33 , with my own shape.
Hair is from Tram: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Minnaloushe/180/33/20
The wings… are old favourites for me, from an old Gacha from lassitude & ennui: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Nouveau/46/88/27